|Experience by Ishrat Ali|
Bismillah Ar Rahman Ar Raheem. All Praise be to Allah Subhana Wa Ta’ala. Allah Subhana Wa Ta’ala has been so kind to me. When I wake up in the morning, next to my bed I have a list of du’as that I have posted. There is a du’a of asking Allah’s forgiveness and thanking Allah Subhana Wa Ta’ala and many others Alhamdulillah to save me from Hell Fire.
When I think of Hell fire, I get scared. I know of all the things, I am not that strong. If I get a little hurt, I cry. When I am cooking, if my finger touches a hot pan, I scream in pain. Truly, I admit to Allah that I would not even be able to bear one drop of fire in the Hell.
That every day I wonder what will happen to me after my death. I do my best to prepare but how good am I in my worship. I keep questioning myself. Every few moments I feel the need to ask my Lord for forgiveness. The good deeds I do, it’s up to my Lord to accept it from me.
In my fear and Love of Allah Subhana Wa Ta’ala, I feel His mercy. Wherever I go, I know Allah Subhana Wa Ta’ala is taking care of my affairs. He is reminding me of my sins when I do wrong and He helps me when I am in hardship.
He has been so Kind to me all my Life. He has given me everything whether I ask Him for it or not. Every day when we wake up, we find life inside us. Sleep is like death and when we wake up, we are alive again. I feel so happy and thankful to Him for His blessings. Truly Allah is with me Alhamdulillah.
When I am walking alone, I make dhikr and I find Him by my side. He is my companion making sure I go home safely. I need not worry.
When I am at work, I find so much fitnah around myself. I make dhikr and remember Him, I forget who is around me. I am with my Lord, Most High. I fear no one.
In the night, I know I am distressed and depressed of what I am going through. I listen to the Speech of Allah, Al Quran and find tranquility in my heart. He is telling me to despair not and be patient. Truly, Allah is with the patient ones.
SubhanAllahi Wa Bihamdihi SubhanAllahil Azim
Truly, Allah is the Most Great, Most Kind, Most Merciful. He has been so kind to me always. To Him I belong…My life…My everything and To Him I will return Insha’Allah.
May Allah Subhana Wa Ta’ala forgive us all and forgive me. May He make us among His Righteous slaves Ameen